“I am not my affection”

I grew up with an amazing mother. I didn’t lack anything and I was perfectly happy. However, as
I grew older, I noticed that I was acting strangely around boys. I didn’t really know how to be
“normal”. I realized it was because I never saw what a “normal” male/female relationship is.

So, today it is hard for me to be really open and true to other people. Thus, to others, I might seem
cold and without a heart. I would say it is true in some cases, because I do keep my distances with
many people. However, inside, I do have feelings. I’m just not sure how to express them and what
is normal and acceptable. It’s a daily struggle.

I am scared to never really fall in love, or miss out/push away a great person because I don’t know how to express myself.

But I just try to be myself, and if people don’t like it, then they don’t have to be my friend.