Paranoia is one of the several habitual thinking patterns that rotate through my mind. I always said that I didn’t care what people thought of me but over time, I grew more and more paranoid that people were planning and plotting behind my back. This came from a deep shame caused from my heavy drinking … Read more
In 1999, I was an average 17 year old girl, obsessed with all things agriculture, horses and showing livestock. Within a year that all changed. Somewhere along the way I was introduced to Meth, and it forever changed my life. Within months I quickly forgot about my family, friends, college goals, hopes & dreams. I … Read more
Childhood is such a formative time in one’s life. So many actions and reactions contribute to how someone is shaped for the rest of their lives. Growing up in image conscious LA, I was the chubby kid. With media concepts of what attractive people should look like all around me, I felt different, and started … Read more
Growing up having a label before labels – I was known as “The Fat Kid”. I was constantly treated differently, and made fun of to my face as well as behind my back. Kids at school would tease me to the point of hiding in the bathroom, and laying in bed pretending to be sick so … Read more
Since as long as I can remember I have always been that girl with the huge hips. It never mattered how skinny the rest of me was, it always just seemed to stay right in that location. I have been a model since I was young and I would always get comments from my agents … Read more