A major part of my life is my friends. Thank G-d I am surrounded by a group of amazing people that I am lucky to call my friends. Unfortunately however, I have a hard time with thinking before I speak. I often find myself opening my big mouth and what comes spewing forth is…not exactly what I would want to be allowed outside of my head. I am lucky to be blessed with patient and understanding friends for I have offended or insulted every single one of them at some point yet they have stayed close to me despite this.
The important thing to understand is that what I say does not come from a place of malice. I do not have evil intentions to hurt people when I open my mouth, but somehow the way certain things come out, end up having a hurtful effect. I hate myself for this. I hate knowing that my lack of self-control is ironically controlling my interactions with others. But worry not, I am working on it, making a conscious effort to filter through the things that pop into my head and make sure that they come out of my mouth in a harmless way, or not at all. If you ever have an encounter with me in which I say something that seems harsh, please take it with a grain of salt. After all, I am a work in progress.